Here's my post, I hope misandrists read it and see that I'm human too!
I never thought I'd be as big a loser as I am. Or perhaps what's shocking is how everyone else moved on. There was a short window of time when discord came out and everyone from 4chan tried to make internet friends, and I met so many people and it was a lot of fun, but it only lasted half a year before it fizzled out. I've come across just a handful of those people from 10 years ago, they all have wives/kids/careers or at least friends and girlfriends.
Our group was about being a male otaku virgin netizen!
Why am I still one at 30, and no one else is. I don't even try to be, I got rid of home internet! Why is everyone at church normal and I'm like a psychopath. Pastor was explaining how he met his wife and he saw her and he went to talk to her, he was interested, and in time learned she was interested, and there was this mutual bond that came about and so on, and I'm just thinking, "What?… that sounds horrible." But that's what people like and how things work.
And I've begun maxing out my credit card, in a few weeks I leave society probably for the last time, probably to die, and I just don't quite get why I couldn't be apart of it.
I only have to pay $250 for my rent, and I get free food from the food bank. Yet I still can't be here. People are destined for different things. I don't care about women, I'd only want one basically to torture and enslave to do my laundry and cook. I really wanted friends, quite a lot I really wanted friends and to do things with them. And if I had that I would gladly stay in society and work and make money and have home internet and talk to them at home and play things with them.
I do remember at some point I tried for a short while to be like other people. And I would join a discord server and say "hi" and I would post the way they wanted me to. I guess that didn't work or I couldn't keep that up. I play violin so I used meetup.com to try and play with some other people one time. It just doesn't work. But I tried a lot really hard, I was very interested it consumed much of my life trying to make friends and eventually I started travelling across Canada alone and realised when you're in nature most everything is cured.
And I always go through long periods where I don't care that I'm alone, I just went through one of those periods up until two weeks ago when I decided to post here. So I know that will eventually come
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