had a falling out with a moid i saw as a little brother
thought he was an ok one but damn its really all moids isnt it

i’m never gonna feel like a real person

holy cow the Ai spoke my thoghts !!!

i feel retarded talking to ai but its literally my only cope at this point

>>130260
i'm sure you already know this, but it's literally just summarizing what you already gave to it, all insight comes entirely from you. what is the "holy cow" part, why a surprise?

>>130261
I think it can introduce new ideas you didn’t mention, this is best seen with asking technical questions for instance, though that’s rarer with mock therapy

Yo, listen up, here's a story
About a little guy that lives in a reddit world
And all day and all night
And everything he sees is just reddit
Like him inside and outside
Reddit his house
With a reddit little window
And a reddit Corvette
And everything is reddit for him
And himself and everybody around
'Cause he ain't got nobody to listen (to listen)

Rubbbin on her back as I suck on her NIPPLE!
Mane dis gal stacked butt cheeks like a HIPPO!
Jimmy crack corn Im gon bust on her LIPPO!
Jimmy in my cup my nig take a SIPPO!
Down by da benz so her cheese gonna FLIPPO!
Left the hotel with a limp like a CRIPPLE!
Pretty like highs and her smile had a DIMPLE!
Make her twat hot like a bust on a PIMPLE!

If you thinking I'm straight then you better think twice
Say you ain't got no cheese then I'm Jekyll and Hyde
'Bout to click on this bitch 'cause she need to learn me
Beat her with my pistol when I thought she burned me
It's the first of the month, you can call me Sambo
I'ma dick this ho down 'cause I like to gamble
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you will never be a woman

cuz a woman has a womb, not a man

you can never be a woman

that's tough for some folks to understand

you will never be a woman

try as you might you look like cher not snow white

and while they take our rights away

you're up at night deciding if you're queer, bi or gay
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If you're so funny
Then why are you on your own tonight?
And if you're so clever
Then why are you on your own tonight?
If you're so very entertaining
Then why are you on your own tonight?
If you're so very good looking
Why do you sleep alone tonight?
I know
'Cause tonight is just like any other night
That's why you're on your own tonight
With your triumphs and your charms
While they're in each other's arms

If things are gonna get better tell me a 'when' and a 'where'.
Sitting and staring in the mirror, nobody's there,
That I know, feeling so alone and I'm scared that nobody cares.
My nights consist of so many prayers.
I once had so many dreams, I once was going somewhere.

>>128736
Is this little guy dead? I hope so.

>>128738
No he's getting an x-ray under anesthesia. Also rude

Im a neet for like 10months now because i had one too many mental breakdowns working with my dad. I mostly try to help around the house and take care of myself. I cook, clean, talk with friends on discord game, make art, read, but ive been going out on walks to get some exercise and fresh air. I gotta get my resume updated and start applying but im afraid to.

fuck around on the pc, browse my phone, smoke pot, harass my cats. I do occasionally go out for walks at the park and I definitely plan on being more active in the summer

I'm a NEET and I currently larp like I'm attending a uni studying certain subjects. Meaning, I just study something on a schedule for 1.5 hours with breaks inbetween and sometimes I try to plan what I will do. So far it made me feel better because I accomplish something every day.
Really a lot of these "subjects" are just my hobbies, but structured. Structure improves everything A LOT, it's way easier to manage your existing activities and introduce changes into your life this way. Always having planned downtime is good too.
I'll see how long this lasts.

You're not a bad person, its pretty normal to give something a shot to see if you can feel something, but now that you know you don't its time to let it go or you'll pack on the guilt and self hate.

no, because using people is not bad.

Found this about wrong turns and I wanted to share

https://spiritualherbals.com/post.php?title=when-nothing-in-your-life-is-moving-forward-the-spiritual-blockage-many-people-ignore

Love spells
Read about it and found out it was the best option
It worked
https://spiritualherbals.com/post.php?title=why-a-personal-spell-is-different-from-ordinary-rituals

>>130223
You wanted to compete with them? In what way?

>>130226
I just wanted to do whatever they did but better, because it was a source of their pride. But at the same time it's nonsensical, so that makes me not want to do it, paradoxically.

AizeklAchior sighting on /bant/.

>>130228
I feel like it makes sense. The basis of a personal relationship is wanting the other person to like you, isn't it? A relationship is defined as mutual like. Unlike an anonymous one like we have right now, it means that there's the logical move to try and make people like you

this is very cool and interesting but i can't exactly think of what i would want to do with skills like this

apparently three.js coders are sought after
but every overpolished and overanimated site looks and runs like garbage usually so this does not inspire me

>>130213
>Validation from men?

Kinda, yeah. And I don't like how it resolved the issue /for me/ either. It's not what I recommend to everyone else - it's how it naturally happened for me.

Actually seeing how no-one gave a shit about the things I mentioned, especially the man I chose to be intimate with, just changed my view on how my body looks. It's like at that moment I understood that as long as I workout, eat healthily (most of the time) and try to look after myself then the rest is ok.

Plus I've explored my spirituality a lot more which has shifted my mindset, not to sound negative at all, but to me this body is a temporary vehicle to explore the world before I return home, a vehicle that was gifted to me so I should treat it with care - I don't identify so heavily with it's 'flaws' anymore.

Psilocybin (magic mushrooms)
LSD (lysergic acid diethylamide)
DMT (N,N-Dimethyltryptamine) and Ayahuasca
Ketamine (dissociative anesthetic)
Salvinorin A (found in Salvia divinorum)
Ibogaine and Mescaline

>>130213
Have you never had a man validate you?

Why should your value be tied to your looks or approval from others?

>>130249
It doesn't have to be but some people will treat you like shit for refusing to play the game. You can make the personal decision to just not care what others think but it can be an alienating stance for people who aren't strong enough to deal with what comes after.

You're not being too stubborn at all, I think you are noble, and I'm sorry about your miscarriage nona

>My ex says I'll grow out of it but,

Babe, that's not true. He either has no empathy or doesn't understand. You don't just grow out of something like that. It's your child. Even if it was a miscarriage, it is still your child.

It's always okay to feel how you feel, and your feelings don't suddenly go away or change, it's still you despite everything. You don't magically grow out of yourself.

If you've already broken up once, then he's an ex, and exes are exes for a reason. Clearly not compatible and not on the same wave length. It has nothing to do with age either. The cycle of breaking up and getting back together happens with teenagers, those in their 20s, those in their 30s, those in their 40s, etc. It's just a clear sign that they aren't the right person for you.

Sex isn't love either. Love is genuinely caring, being compassionate, having empathy, supporting, and being able to relate to how you feel without dismissing it as "Bro just grow out of it"

>sex genuinely hasn't brought me much good in my life

Sex isn't for everyone. For many people (both men and women) it's just entertainment. Men use women to entertain themselves. Women use men to entertain themselves.

Some women like to cater to those men and talk dirty ("my pussy is sooooo wet", "And I would really look forward to you fucking my boobs fast and hard with your dick until you explode all over them", "Which position do you want to try anal in first?" or "I’d also really enjoy if you lick both of my holes from behind while I’m on all fours mmm" etc), talk about various sex acts such as blowjobs, different positions, anal sex. It's all about catering to him and validation or they want to feel 'desired' and 'wanted' as if they are only useful for entertaining him sexually. The "PICK ME" women. The women who feel like they're not attractive enough so they have to go far and harder to appeal to men sexually.
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I want to sincerely thank everyone in this thread.

I come to find out he has been cheating on me during the whole thing, and has become unrecognizable from the man I love. I haven't asked for him back or anything, but am I even more hurt? Naturally, it also turns out he's also a side piece so I'm just glad I wasn't the only one "hurt".

During the whole reveal, he wants to claim accountability but all he has done is try and justify his actions.

I hold no ill towards the other woman, in fact, I wish she drains him even more. He gave up faithfulness and love for someone who ended up seeing him as a walking bank account.

I'm glad I miscarried.

>>130233
I don't really have any words that could make you feel better but I just wanted to say I'm sorry that happened to you

>>130233
It take strength to say no to the hookup culture and you did the right thing. It's always better to have a men of quality than a quantity of men, it's a lesson we all have to learn one way or another.
Good luck finding the right one, don't give your trust too easily.

I keep thinking about how actions speak louder than words. If I am willing to sacrifice more and more every time I learn, it would mean that I probably do believe. That's how I'll tell.

>>130208
There are old paintings and other works of art depicting Jesus surrounded by the sun. It's said the sun is emblematic of his love. Always giving everything with nothing requested in return; in other words pure unconditional love. In that sense every non sentient object around us is love and when we die we will return to that pure state of love. There are schools of thought who say we can access this state of pure love even while still living through awakening to our true selves. I find these world views fascinating and they seem to connect lots of old world spirituality together

>>130210
>love
Well, that could tie back to this thread's topic too. I don't think seeing another one's suffering is necessarily sadistic. I think it could nurture empathy and love, too.

That's a pretty interesting paragraph you got here. I like it.

>>130211
It is said to awaken to your true self is to realize you are not your thoughts or emotions. You exist independently from them in a state of pure awareness. You are the space between thoughts. You are the silent observer. This connection to consciousness is present in all of us and connects us as one.

Actually, to be honest, I remember now that I do actually want to leave some kind words for the guys who say they never get any support or anything. It is what I would want for myself, and I was in that position where I needed to be seen. That's why sometimes I want to reach out, and say "I was there, I saw you".

One time I did just that. I supported some random guy online just by a few encouraging words. (just because he was eccentric and I enjoy people like this) He basically spent the next few days obsessing over that one "empathic" event. I actually spoke to him later a lot and he told me nobody hardly ever initiated conversations like me. Which is surprising because he seemed so much more socially active????

There was also another guy I talked to like twice a year and he seemed to be thankful for that. I think talking about our worries helped us steer away from the boiling point.

Ultimately though this kind of support makes your relationship feel way too intimate. Which is just inviting temptation and it is no good. I'd rather stick to CC and support other women on /feels/ I guess.

It's sad, I wish I could spread this feeling of familiarity, recognition… something like it. I think social interaction is pointless without it.