>>131818oh yes, i do rely on many people. especially my parents - they are the only reason i am here - i'm a sick person mentally and physically
however, i also only feel emotionally attached to them, and no one else. i feel thankful for my friends and my boyfriend and everyone else in my life for sure.
i'm an extrovert, actually - or at least i play one in public? i'm talkative and charismatic, but i prefer to only exist to people like this. i maintain a distance where i am only a bright spot in some people's lives that keeps popping up. if you try to reach me when i'm not there, you'll fail, and so most don't try outside of inviting me out. i think they can sense i do not want to me known? maybe?
to an extent, i also don't even let my dad in, and he is the closest person ever to me. my parents are the only ones i can feel in my space without feeling like they're trespassing into something i don't even want them to know exists?
i can rely on them without letting them in, you know?
>>131827it is hard but i likely will have to. i never want to live with him, or anyone, no matter how perfect. he says he doesn't want that with anyone except me, but, i think he may just be too in love with me to realize i'm not the only special girl. there are girls with more open hearts, more empathy
