i hate dating so much Anonymous 129407[Reply]
i hate these freaking guys who follow only fans twitch streamers or whatever it makes me sick when im talking to a guy and i find out he follows them. Or when a man tells me he has like 15 bodies it just feels like so is that what I am to you? am i another one? what did the other 5 girlfriends do so wrong by you? I know its 90% cause of just my own insecurity but I literally cant stop it. I decided to try and be normal and date but i have never hated myself more. i want to retreat into my body and never face anyone again. I'm so sick of being the pursuer too like just once it would be nice to be pursued. never date nerd guys they all fucking suck. all guys fucking suck. It doesnt help that im not pretty and i have to consciously make the effort to cope and push it to the back of my mind. when im talking to or dating a guy the thought of him looking at another girl makes me physcially sick. I literally feel insane. I feel like im one of those crazy obsssessive ppl. which to be honest i lowkey am. I had a better time single and just watching edits on instagram. its crazy cause ive always been the avoidant type
1 post omitted. Click reply to view.Anonymous 129410
>>129408it doesn’t sound like op hates men at all lol.
Anonymous 129411
>>129407>I decided to try and be normalI think you did the opposite. You tried conforming to the abnormality in this world. Couldn't handle the loneliness, got swayed by temptations.
Anonymous 129412
>the thought of him looking at another girl makes me physcially sick
same.
I use OF and streamers as a litmus test for men, because it's very telling about their online behaviour and relationship to women. Having multiple favourite streamers he religiously watches full streams of is obviously massively unhealthy, and if it's softcore porn or political slop reaction content, then all the worse. Paying any kind of subscription to a woman media personality is instantly a red flag and can't really be excused in the vast majority of circumstances. It's just admitting he sees sex as a transaction: he pays her money which gives him explicit approval, consent if you will, to use her for his pleasure, and allows him to make a claim to some small part of her body and life. There's a reason he's not just jerking off to free internet porn.
>I decided to try and be normal
You can still date while being weird, but it sounds like you're overcompensating by trying to date "normal" men, who are in fact degenerates that trawl dating apps and will take a shot at any woman, or vaguely woman-shaped thing, that lets them get close enough.
Anonymous 129413
>>129407there’s absolutely no reason your boyfriend needs to be following girls who stream on twitch for any reason. like ever… loser behavior. most women who stream on twitch are goon farming for simps. & i don’t really blame them cause men are pathetic enough to actually engage in this kinda stuff.. but yeah don’t ever let him try to convince you he’s not just following/engaging with these girls cause he finds them hot. cause that’s exactly what he’s doing.
