>>118113>limerence>obsession towards him because he’s my first darling >I would love to be meany but only in my head>Jealous towards his palsNona… don’t you think that your brain it’s thinking about so many delusional thoughts?
I really doubt it’s very healthy for you to do so in the long run imo.
You just stress yourself for the pettiest thing and it’s tiring.
Speaking for my experience last year I kept having those delusional involuntary thoughts about my girlfriend, because I was really scared that she would leave me or bullcrap like that, in a few words I was obsessed about her because it comforted me from past childhood traumas and I saw her like a big old sister for me that I’ve never had.
Being obsessed towards your bf could seem cute and could show a good degree of loyalty, but it’s going only to make him flee faster!
Obsession it’s not true love trust me, just try to accept that you can’t control your boyfriend and that these thoughts that you’re having rn are not true and not useful for you.
Although I really appreciate that atleast you try to change for the better, at the end of the day, power comes from the will that someone has within himself, isn’t it?
Good luck onto that Nona, and I truly hope you feel better rn! :D
And sorry if you idk found this unhelpful or whatnot D: