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How long have you been together? Are you from us?

>>127932
I'm from the US. We've seeing eachother like 3-4 months but recently decided to go ahead and start officially dating because we realized it was useless waiting if we already do everything couples do. (Met parents and family, go out, tell our friends about each other, he has helped me out financially before) The only thing we haven't done is sleep together.

>>127930
>He sometimes freaks out when I try discussing stuff, but since I struggle with communication I have a hard time speaking and go quiet
This is a huge problem. You both need professional help, consider starting couples therapy.

>>127938
I didnt mention this but I have been trying better to communicate and have been making steady progress. He also acknowledges that this sort of behavior is unhealthy and he is working on it as well. I don't really think couples therapy is the answer as we're both capable of making progress on our own, as well as holding eachother accountable.

Yes, I've actually had suicidal and self-harming behaviors because of it. I was overweight my entire childhood (unlike my mother, who was anorexic and obsessed with appearance). I suffered a lot from her, and she forced me to go on extreme diets from the age of 13. At 16, I gained a lot of weight (when you have nice curves, it looks good, but I was very round, lol).

And I felt disgusting. Everyone at school was disgusted by me, and there was even a very pretty girl who made me feel terrible. Because of those experiences, I suffered from anorexia for two years, and as a result, I looked awful (yes, I'm unattractive at any weight). I still have dark circles under my eyes and a very thin face with a somewhat wide nose because of that illness.

Even my family (moids) have compared me to a super pretty, white cousin. I remember at a dinner they spit in my face telling me she was better, while my face looked like a monkey's. I cried. I locked myself in the bathroom and made cuts in my legs.
I still can't forget all that. How do they expect me to feel loved? How do they expect me to feel hopeful when they all saw something horrible in me, even though I always tried to be a good person?
it might sound weird but i feel jealous of slightly chubby girls,they look healthy and cute with curves while i look flat and my face is masculine because a lack of bucal fat but i cant gain weight no matter how hard i try. I want to kill myself because i cant never be pretty or look at photos of myself with happiness.

There aren’t many methods of coping posted here which is very depressing. Is it possible to not care about this, even temporarily, without convincing yourself that you’re pretty? I find myself being upset about this every waking minute, even when I’m completely alone where it shouldn’t matter.

I hate having a wide face, I can’t even tie my hair back or put it behind my ears because I look like the moon emoji and charlie kirk. picrel

>>127744
> Is it possible to not care about this, even temporarily, without convincing yourself that you’re pretty?
Dear nona, I have some insights for you, do with them as you please. I want you to look back to yourself, as a child. Do you have any pictures to look at, or can you picture yourself in your mind? When you look at her, I hope, you probably think she's quite cute, still happy. I hope, you wouldn't say such harsh things about her, as what you may tell yourself now.

You might think how that's way different. You're older now! And you're right. What was the age you started becoming self conscious? For me it was pre-teen, I think this is similar for everyone, perhaps teen years. While we grow up, and our brains develop, we can process our life experiences and become aware of certain expectations. This is my insight: Unfortunately all suffering and misery can be led back to other people, and the pressure of the expectations they hold. I'm not necessarily talking about a certain person in your life, but how all people basically act and think due to how our society is set up. (and remember: women are, still, always at a disadvantage!!)

So When you feel sad/or are picking yourself apart, think about why? It isn't even making you happy! So why are you doing it? try to remember when you learned to see that aspect of yourself as negative, or even 'important' to think about. A nose is made for breathing for example, why do we care if it small or big? You will find out it will always be due to ideas from other people (either direct or indirect), and even though you can't do anything about this, it does redirect the 'fault' from you, to, well, others. This has made me at least feel better, because I, nor you, don't have any inherent faults or uglyness. It is always a result of societal pressures.

And social media doesn't help this at all. unfortunately the majority of people you see online are -in terms of beauty- exceptional. You don't see these people in regular life, but online it's become 'normalized'. It is a bit cliche, but recently I have completely deleted all social media (even messaging apps) , and I cannot begin to describe the benefits it has brought me. Aside from my immensely improved focus, not having something/someone to compare myself to (sub consciously even) has also incredibly helped my sPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>127744
It’s like what people say about grief. You don’t get over it, you just learn to live with it. Just give it time is what I am saying, live life.

I'm trying to internalize that you can't argue with someone who's willfully delusional online. The only outcome is that if you're very obviously right and the other person's wrong, other people will pile on and also call them delusional and retarded, and while that may feel just at the time, all you've done is derail the thread and make it a slog for the uninvolved to sift through. The person you're arguing with probably enjoys all the attention too.

You trained me to have an anxiety episode every time youdon't reply for a long time. I can't tell if something actually happened or you just not using your phone

Why not just text that youre busy? That you're not gonna reply for a while because of x or y? Why jut abruptly dissappear? Why induce this anxiety for me and torture me mentally? Why lie that you love me and care about me, only to act like a complete coward when you need to open up to me about something?

This is the last time I let you do this. No more chasing after you and waiting for an answer. Your silence is the answer and if you regret it you'll have to live with the regret for the rest of your life

I'm tired of forgiving you

I’m anxious over something but I can’t quite tell what it is.

>>127920
Thank you for reading all that nona. Going no contact was hard, but it’s been worth it. I hope you get to that place too when you’re ready.

I feel such deep shame for my existence that I can't imagine ever truly knowing someone on a personal level
I'd jump off a bridge if it meant I could be someone else (other than dead)

Schizo thread.

you just need genuine friendships.
Don't fall for degenerate dynamics

>>127912
Wow, how strange of you to assume all this! Sorry, I'm not gonna give you your validation. Nobody cares whether youre straight in a monogamous or queer in a polyamorous relationship. Get a life.

Furthermore, you provided 0 information about this relationship besides it being polyamorous, so it's not like theres much to ask about anyway.

>>127903
I mean if they have money maybe it's okay..
Really what you should have is a roster and not need to commit to them or just get friends. Your body is valuable, don't give it away for free.

i don’t understand what opinion are you looking for? like, you seem fine, you want us to congratulate you or judge your asexual connections? there’s nothing to discuss here. enjoy it ig

>>127891
Kinda hot tbh

my mother/family was like this then i was roommates with an older woman who was a boy mom and acted like this towards me

>>127906
She's not hot, she's a fucking sow

>>127917
Damn anon, you had it worse than I do then. Hope you're far away from them now. Those types of women are worthless cunts that need to be wiped off the face of the earth

American pancakes are disgusting

the woman has to be protective of herself and looking out for her own best interests. all men want is sex. if they expect a child, they prove they are a provider or it’s the next in line. it is that simply. if you can’t court me and show you can care for me without ulterior motives and resentment at the beginning of the relationship, you are not someone who can be trusted when finances are combined and my child and i will die when i am too pregnant and too injured afterwards to care for myself alone. it’s literal survival. if he doesn’t court you, just keep telling the next ones what he was like and that’s not how it works for you. they’ll eventually start stepping up. if they think you will tolerate being treated as low quality that’s how they will view you.

>>127876
>and i will die when i am too pregnant
Everyone knows to get pregnant only a little bit, some take it too far, but it's something we as society must learn to deal with, if we are to keep this traditional pastime.

>>127870
Lately I'm convinced a relationship with a moid is nearly impossible. I say nearly because I don't want to go too extreme but honestly I think pretty much impossible.
So a healthy and good relationship with genuine love firstly starts between two women. Furthermore I can't say anything universal, as it always depends between people, but good communication is a MUST and I think similar views too. And obviously respect for eachother.

>>127870
romantic love isn’t real in general. especially not between a man and a woman. no man is capable of loving anyone but himself

>>127898
First of all, I'm only speaking about women since this is forum is meant for girls/women. And I can't really say much for moids but I'd assume a good relationship for them would start with moid+moid as well.
Again: I said 'starts'. If you weren't such a retard without reading comprehension skills you might've understood that. I'm not saying its an end all be all.

I post a lot in the vent thread and not a single post was about moids I think. at least not about bf issues tbh

well i asked sanic if i should break it off and he said yes so i’m going to

>>127851
Not specifically the vent thread just threads on the feels board in general

PREACH because why are these women letting themselves be dragged down by moids of all creatures

can you make it right now

>>127860
Nona, with love I tell you you sound mentally deranged and delusional. I recognize because i've been there too. Stop wasting your time on a moid who cannot commit to you. You look crazy posting on this femcel website about some note from unsentproject you can't even confirm is sent from this person but you cling on to this hope because it makes you feel worthy. Stop obsessively checking websites and accounts hoping he sent something. Genuinely what do you think this will accomplish. Either reach out to him directly and end the vagueness or move on. Give yourself closure. And sometimes hearing nothing is closure enough. Obviously he's had his chances before and now times up. Stop giving yourself so easy jeez

what have you won by rejecting these things? what new paths opened for you?

>>127888
inner peace it sounds like

>>127889
well sure mate but how is yous all spending your time

>>127882
There is a term for that: anhedonia
It is often present in patents with depression and schizophrenia, but can also manifest by itself.

>>127882
Lately i've been on a similar journey with a friend of mine. I'm not sure if it's the same, because i do experience a certain contentness with ie smoking a cigarette, but I'm not sure if it categorizes as pleasure. But for me it's because I overanalyze things and recognize how they don't truly give me pleasure/happiness, which is why i've stopped finding reasons to bring up any energy for them.

The only friend I do enjoy is the one that has similar views as me and we talk to each other and it always feels very enlightning. Furthermore I only engage in behaviors that actually stimulate the soul, reading meaningful books for example.

My ultimate goal is also independence and peace. I ideally would like to ghost everyone I know.