i knew it was wrong
i’m beyond it
i tried to be strong
but i
lost
it

i’ve never even seen a porn video that had as much blood as that day.

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under the light
time goes so slowly
in your world
over the night
don’t feel so lonely
in your world
can you hear me please?

is it hard to be?

Red roses in the bottle at the bottom of the pool
See you there tomorrow maybe, baby, play it cool
He loves you, he loves you not, baby, know the rules
Pickin' petals never made nobody choose
Blue oceans in your eyes and in my dreams they come alive
Skeletons in my closet, I might barely survive
They love me, they love me not, runnin' for my life
For no matter when it's time, get your shades for the shine you want
Everything we are
Everything is hard
This is espionage
I spy your heart breakin'
Red rover send me over, oh, you better pick a side
I told you I'd come and hold you, I'm just waitin' for a ride
He loves you, he loves you not, baby, it's alright
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Lonely, lonely, I guess I'm lonely
Пусть всё будет, как решит монолог твоей души
Lonely, lonely, I guess I'm lonely
Ты Венера, я Земля
Ева, я любила тебя
Твои пластинки слушала я
И в каждой находила себя (lonely, lonely)
Зачем остановила меня? (Lonely, lonely)

>>127472
A prayer for Nana No. 127472, if counts for anything

>>127472
thank you i think that it actually does really matter

>>127451
Thanks for asking and sorry I'm replying so late
I'm sad I'm furious I'm angry etc. The good thing is I'm starting to feel it instead of being numb to it.
I was very socially retarded for a long time and after unlocking a certain memory I realize why kinda
Like I had a classmate who didn't like me and made passive aggressive remarks towards me. One day we gone over to her house with other classmates and she just tells me to stay in the other room?? for something?? and I think I finally get to chill alone. But I didn't realize what I was doing was kinda setting myself up to find silver lining in shit treatment too much, really she just wanted me to fuck off.
It's embarrassing and led me to many dumb situations but also it's something that made me extremely adaptive.
Like I end up like being a weird lure for certain people that's capable of fucking them up suddenly and I don't really get traumatized too much but like… It's not worth it. It just isn't.
I'm like this very weird person you overestimate at first due to my detachment, then you underestimate me cuz you realize I'm actually just stupid then I end up re emerging in a real weird way.
I still hate myself for not caring about status and disrespect so much cause it just made socialization harder tho.

Sorry if this rant ends up weird. I think it stems from my childhood where I had to make up my own rules cause I didn't want to play by my parents'.

I didn't realize just how different standards are for women vs men and just how subhuman women are actuallytreated in public until I started working retail

Any male coworkers i had never got patronized by customers or coworkers, never got told to smile more or be more friendly and get praised for doing bare minimum at work meanwhile me and other female coworkers get constantly told we don't work hard enough

And I can't help but notice those pathetic old bitch karen customers acting bubbly and shit with the guys that work here, meanwhile shitting on us, reviews are full of them complaining about us but not the male workers

And old creepy moids that come here thinking female retail workers want to fuck them because we're being polite (it's literally our job), and get mad and personally offended if you don't smile while they're telling you creepy ass remarks about your body and face

>>127522
yup

>>127315
Am I missing something or are you planning an overly complicated revenge plot to get back together with a guy who abandoned you after getting you knocked up and flirted with someone else in front of you? It'd probably be easier to find some other guy to date who won't do all this shit.

>>127315
I get that feeling of absolute hate.
I sometimes wish I had the skill and nerve to pull a Uramiya tier revenge scheme on someone, but the person I hate the most moved to who knows where before I found out what he did. He raped my best friend multiple times and I wish there was something I could do to ensure he won't do it to anyone else. My friend wants to leave it in the past but I'm still so mad on her behalf…
I'll respect her wishes but damn, this sucks.

>>127320
If it won't work while you're alive, it'll work even less when you're dead.
Unless your plan involves framing him for murder, suicide just isn't a good way to get back at anyone. There are better ways to take revenge.
You want to get back at him, right? You despise that piece of shit? Then don't hurt yourself like that, live your best life and if you must, at least find a way to get back at him that elevates you above him. You can't do that if you're 6 feet under…
You deserve a good life without obsessing over some human waste of a moid and you can regain your pride without having to tear him down first.
But if you reaally want to tear him down (he 100% deserves it), don't do it in the heat of the moment and work out something that won't bite you in the ass later.
If you plan on exposing him, you could try to get some legal advice if you think it might help.
>>127316
Fpbp but yeah, it'll depend on the country.

he is just going to say you took out the trash for him and they’ll look through your stuff and see you just wanted him back. you need to become more successful and then come back and cancel him for what he actually did to you. not lies.

>>127315
My revised version of your plan:
>take time collecting evidence of him asking you to translate or discussing the details (emails, texts, dates, screenshots)
>do NOT kys
>expose his ass to the publishers, colleagues and everyone
>do NOT kys
>enjoy watching his life crumble
>report back here for lolz
>do NOT kys
>go on with your life

If you're dead there will be nobody to challenge his claim that you did it because of your mental health.

RUN

I'm not the one to say run away from any challenge but either this guy drops his ex or he drops you. if he really liked you he would forget about other romantic interest, at the very least you deserve it nona.

I'm not saying he's evil or he's not having a hard time, but this is the situation where you need to be selfish.

>but he also freaks out if he feels like I’m upset with him or just disappointed with him
as he should

personally i wouldn't take anyone who's still hung up on his ex ever so slightly
but GOD I hope something like this finds me without the ex part please please please please please please

imagine him even mentioning his ex. at that point she’s as much a part of her life as you. you deserve better.

why aren’t you guys compatible? don’t leave us hanging nona

same

>>125487
>me and my bf aren't compatible
buy an adapter then

>>127504
kek

>>127504
this is what i make my bald little dicked ex look like every time i send him his monthly review on how he’s fallen short of mediocrity this time

Which is why we gotta turn the tables and start doing irl reverse harems. Get impressionable 22+ year Olds to bend to our iron will and become subservient to us. Once I make a 6 figure income and get my own place that's what I plan on doing.

>>127469
except men cant get hard if they are not interested so reverse harem doesnt work

>>127495
girl what he just has to stroke his dick twice and think of his ex all they want is sex

>>127469
or you could just remove the "valuable" male element from your life entirely and focus on things that actually put you in a position of intellectual leverage over a male (the only way you as a woman could even fight back against male dominance anyway)

>>127496
and you are okay with your harem boy thinking of his sex while fucking you?

the healthcare system and tragedies beyond your own control

i hate being ugly, lol.

I hate close-mindedness, people who refuse to reevaluate their own assumptions to protect their egos are bound to be ignorant.
I hate herd mentality, people who align their worldview to match that of their peers, in order to be part of some in-group, become a blind, mechanical force.
I hate cowardice in face of injustice, my own self-righteousness, getting old and not being able to take upon myself infinite amount of suffering.

people who are negative all the time and make others miserable just because they're miserable lol

men who rape virgins

>>127230
she claims she was saving herself for marriage and he raped her. he claims she lost her virginity to him consensually within their first week of dating. this was two years after hs for them so it was a long time ago but she has maintained her story since she came forward and still is angry. he goes on those subreddits to watch for her posts he claims. thank you for the password tip, i will access his PC and his passwords and see what he gets up to. i wish i knew how to unhide chats because i’m sure i’ll find some he sent to her and tried to hide.

pros:
>quite romantic, actually
>very, VERY..! good sex
>marxist (me too)
>philosophy student (me too)
>i'm his first love
>has very good taste in fashion
>good taste in film
>actually a genius
>always pays for our dates
>has a really sexy car
>has read The Second Sex
>extremely hot
>sexy biceps
>doesn't watch porn. if he's jerking off, he's looking at sfw pictures of me
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>>127480
>has a really sexy car
Is it a Renault Twingo?

>>127480
Forgot these pros:
- Drinks Matcha
- Wears funky plushies

>>127480
>anger issues as a child that were never resolved
>very bad reputation on campus
>our college had to move us into seperate houses
Clearly they are seeing something you are blinding yourself to. Please be safe nona.